ESTARISKS
currently:
♫ mmmmmmmm no more music:( headphones broke:(
★ im really hungry?! awwwhhh so hungry
♫ music recs...
listening to:
♫ Don't Cry Over Spilled Milk - Select All
1.) ...Because I'm young, Arrogant, and Hate Everything You Stand For - Machine Girl ( Song & Album)
2.) Wlfgirl - Machine girl (Album)
3.) Don't Cry Over Spilled Milk - Select All
4.) Paraphernalia - Select All
5.) Puppyplay - MAILPUP, Femtanyl, Sixwing
6.) REACTOR - Femtanyl
7.) Imagindal Disk - Magdalena Bay (Album)
8.) CHASER - Femtanyl (Album)
9.) NASTYWERKKKK - Femtanyl, ISSABROKIE
10.) GOT UR NUMB3R (v2) - Bugcried
11.) Undress me - Co shu nie
12.) Angel on a Satellite - Magdelena Bay
13.) Beautiful Bride, Again, Chasm, The Kind, Circle, Tiny Heart, - Flyleaf (Memento Mori - Album)
14.) Evacuate The Danclefoor - Cascada
15.) W.D.Y.W.F.M - The Neighborhood
16.) Sweet sacrifice - Evanescence
17.) Cloud nine - Evanescence
18.) Everybody's Fool - Evanescence
19.) Im So Sick, Fully Alive, Cassie, All around me, - Flyleaf
20.) MAGFEST - Femtanyl
21.) Worthy - The Home Teen
22.) **im an avid pierce the veil fan sso listen to ptv *****
23.) Jinx (Album) - Crumb
24.) Birth Of Venus - Banshee
25.) MOKA! - The Vanished People
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random things
working on:
food!
★ graphics
★ lore + art
★ blinkies
★ food pics and recipes???idk!! ive made lots of food but i never take pics. i recommend; Lasagna soup! but make sure to add enough seasonings. recipes LIE. measure with your soul. i doubled my recipe seasoning and it came out SCRUMPTIOUS
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June - 28 - 2026
Okay, so here's a major update I guess! Be prepared for a ton of yapping for this one!

So, at the start of this month.... hmmm what happened ... okay so! Summer started, im officially out of school! (Until August of course. But, hey, I graduate in January! So its okay) I passed all my exams! I struggled really bad staying on top of my work this semester (Bad time mentally and physically) but I somehow still passed everything!! Then, right after school was out, my best friend came to visit! They moved away two years ago half way across the country, but they came to visit for a week! ( June 10th-18th, for any pics that will be the timeline for them for this specific trip) it was fun, very stressful but it was worth it. I had work the first two days they had came, but the third day we went to go to my boyfriends graduation! That day was.. an experience. Graduation in the morning, then we went out to eat with his grandparents, then we decided to go to the pool so we went home to get our bathing suits and that unfortunately took like an hour and a half. But eventually, we made it to the pool and yay yay so much fun! But after that we decided to stop at a store to grab hair dye for my boyfriend.. (He wanted purple! And I was the one to dye it.) And theeenn.. disaster struck :( it started POURING RAIN so hard the automatic doors wouldnt even close because the rain fucked with the sensors. Kinda crazy! It started flooding inside the entry section of the store and nobody was leaving. So we got stranded for like an hour lol but we got home eventually. Then, my boyfriend was at my house until like 3am while I dyed his hair and my best friend was asleep. And I was very sleep deprived and miserable to be up so long! :sob: but then my dad kicked my boyfriend out since he was going to bed and so my boyfriend just slept in his car outside my house until the morning and then my mom invited him back inside so he wouldnt bake in his car. So I got to wake up to my boyfriend crawling up on me to cuddle in the morning for the first time lolol! Then my boyfriend had to leave for three days for a college orientation thing, so me and my best friend had to find stuff to do. We did a lot of makeup and had a cool photo shoot. We did liberty spikes for the first time!!! It was really really cool but being disabled and having to stand there for like three hours doing hair and makeup sure was miserable as hell. But we looked cool as fuck! They made me keep watching euphoria, which that show FUCKING SUCKS IT SUCKS IT SUCKS NEVER WATCH IT IT MAKES ME SO MAD!!!!! Anyways, after my boyfriend got back from his orientation stuff then we got to go to a concert! Evanescence! It was really fun. Me, My two best friends (the long distance one + the one who lives right next to me), and my boyfriend all went! It was a crazy night and we didnt get home until almost 2am. My two best friends stayed the night, my close one only stayed the night because she was lowkey really high and didnt want to go home :sob: it was an accident for her to get so geeked but it was really funny to see her geeked as hell lmao! Then, disaster struck again :( my boyfriend hit a deer on his way home and wrecked his car. But hes okay! And his car got fixed faster than expected thankfully. Aand thay pretty much concludes my best friend visiting!

I started my new job, and Im making quite a bit more money which is great and im so excited! Me and my best friend #2 (the one who lives close to me) are planning to go on a trip to see another concert (Flyleaf!!!) But unfortunately its a 3 hour drive :sobsss!!: so I have to pay for a hotel room. But its okay! Its not until July so that hasnt happened yet. But we are planning!!! Overall this month hasnt been super eventful other than the one week my friend was here :( but atleast im done writing now! Bye bye! That concludes June!!!!
June - 24 - 2026
been a hot minute since i updated,ive been having a really bad chronic pain flare up and its making doing everything really hurt:( im hoping to force myself to keep updating but omg dude
May - 31 - 2026
SAW THE BACKROOMS MOVIE!!!!id give it like aaaaaaaa..... 8/10. im not the best with scary movies but it was good! i think everybody who was hating on the movie eith er just have no media literacy or they just fully had no idea what they were going to watch so they had false expectations and then got mad when it wasnt what they wanted
May - 28 - 2026
watcing euphoria and this shit is making me LOSE MY MIIIIINNNDDDD. ONLY THREE EPISODES IN AND SO MUCH HAS HAPPENED (i mean tbf, the episodes are an hour long, so ive watched almost 3 hours worth) BUT ITS SO CRAZY DUDE. like i NEVER watch any like 'teen dramas' or anything like that, like usually i just stick to random animes but i kept seeing videos about euphoria and was like hm... lemme see.... and now im like FLABBERGASTED. BRO!!!!!!!! WHAT IS GOING ONNNNNNNN!!!!!!!! its like a 6/10. i wouldnt recommend it but like youll definitely never be bored! when i heard "it definitely covers sensitive topics" i didnt know the entire show was based around it like HELLO :sobs: oh yeah main character is a drug addict and overdosed and took fentanyl like WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!
May - 27 - 2026
Gonna go see the backrooms movie with my boyfriend over the weekend!!! probably!! ive made a lot of progress on my site, I'm pretty happy. gonna have to start prepping for artfight though, scary! I'll take pics when I go to the movie, I wanna add more to my pic archive.. Hello bunny! Why are you so cute even? Hello boyfriend! Why are you so far even! I need to get off instagram reels omg... anyways! I got a new job!! I was working at the last place for a couple months (going on .. 8 months? i believe?) and so tomorrow and the day after are my last days working there.... awh how sad! (Im very happy actually!) one of my managers was an asshole, so im happy to move :]
May - 26 - 2026
first real entry in a while! i got a new bunny a couple weeks ago, hes the cutest! school is wrapping up so im finally getting motivation to work on my site and art again!
May - 20 - 2026
MAJOR MAJOR MAAJJOORRR SITE UPDATES!! I HOPE ANYONE WHO IS EXPLORING ENJOYS!!!!!so glad to have more visual interest now, lol!
Apr - 15 - 2026
everthing from feb 15th to march never saved and then i got sad and stopped updating :(but i had a back up so im adding old entrys
Feb - 18 - 2026
IM SO MADDDDDDDDDDDDDDDUHHHHH MY SCHOOL BLOCKED NEOCITIES ON MY SCHOOL COMPUTER THIS IS SO ANNOYINGGGGGGGGG --- Im using my actual coding app but its outdated a little bit and I cant add graphics or even upload this until I get my real computer back, WHICH I DONT HAVE BC MY DAD TOOK TO USE HIS BUM ASS AI SHIT... wanna hear abt my dad?? too bad youre gonna listen - So hes using an AI, to code an app for AI, to use for MORE AI. I AM EXTREMELY AGAINST AI BTW!!! I was tryna yk hint to him that its kinda a stupid idea (His idea, was literally just to have a "personality" for the AI to communicate with so it can cater towards the user and their way of speaking and what kind of responses they want.. CHARACTER AI EXISTED AND THAT WASNT A GOOD IDEA!) then he got mad at me not being enthusiastic and said "feed my ego a little bit cmon tell me its genius" No, what would be genius would be you coding your own app.. hell i wouldnt even be that mad abt the AI if you coding the thing yourself... but noooooooo "coding is a thing of the past! theres no reason to learn anymore, you dont even have to learn for your website anymore!" FUHHH NO IM NOT USING AI TO CODE MY WEBSITE???????? TF?????????? he fell for the propaganda now:[
Feb - 15 - 2026
Me and my bestfriend and boyfriend are gonna go watch iron lung today!!!!!!!! -Okay afterwards, my note is that it was a good movie but reaalllyyy slowly paced (for me having a short attention span made it hard BUT it was worth it)
Feb - 14 - 2026
AW MY BOYFRIEND TOOK ME ON A SUPER AMAZING CUTE DATE I HAD SO MUCH FUN!!!!! we went to an arcade and went bowling and then got dinner reservations and then hung out on the rooftop of a tall building until our reservation time LOVED IT